Given circumstances and magic ifs and how they affect my monologue

From my monologue you are told that the character I’m playing (Drew) that it is her father’s funeral day by when she says, ‘Today my father's going in the ground.’ To help me picture what Drew is like, and how to get to know her as a person in order to feel like her, I have come up with magic ifs. What does Drew look like? What if she’s wearing battered old black converse shoes? What if she’s wearing an ivy green baggy jumper that droops down below her knees? What if she’s wearing tights that have many holes and ladders in them? What if her hair is slightly greasy tied back in a ponytail? What if she stands with a slightly arched back because she’s self-conscious? Maybe she talks with a sense of wisdom? To help me to achieve having a sense of what drew is like, I'll need to use my physical skills, analytical skills and imaginative skills.